Midnight Conversation at the Age of 20- V

Me: Having my mum is a privilege  23:35  
Me: Never seen someone like us  23:35  
Me: I feel blessed  23:35  
You: You are  23:36  
You: My parents are a mess  23:36  
Me: I know  23:36  
Me: I feel sad  23:36  
You: Children in adults' body  23:36  
Me: I wish you had better parents  23:36  
Me: I wish ppl who can't raise kids wouldn't reproduce  23:36
You: Yes  23:37
Me: I'm sorry for you  23:37
Me: I wish I could change it somehow  23:37
You: You do change it  23:37
Me: Really?  23:37
You: Around you I feel different  23:38
Me: How so?  23:38
You: You help me and push me to self actualization 23:38
Me: Wow  23:38
Me: I'm very happy to hear that 23:38
Me: It's a high, having deep comversations, contemplating.  23:43
Me: A natural high.  23:43
You: Yes  23:43
Me: It feels better than any high.  23:43
You: True  23:43
Me: Because you're literally high.  23:43
Me: Elevated in that sense.  23:44
Me: Looking from above.  23:44
You: Absolutely  23:44
You: Solitude above the clouds  23:44
Me: Yes.  23:44
Me: Oddly enough though.  23:44
Me: I do not sense solitude anymore.  23:44
Me: I mistook it for solitude. Highness always seemed to imply distance.  23:44
Me: It's not distance  23:45
Me: It's deep understanding of your surrounding 23:45
You: As much as it is a sense of independence and freedom  23:45
Me: Exactly  23:45
Me: Independence. Well put, love.  23:45
Me: Understanding always implies coexistence.  23:46
Me: But I'm grateful for that.  23:46
Me: There's freedom in that.  23:46
Me: Liberation from frustration of ignorance or misunderstanding.  23:46
Me: You just have to let go of your ego.  23:47
You: That's the only way to feed it  23:47
Me: It?  23:47
You: Ego  23:47
Me: Ego.  23:48
You: I love myself by loving the world  23:48
You: It's not the goal when you do so  23:48
Me: Not mine at least.  23:48
Me: Mine is liberation.  23:48
Me: The eternal light of truth shining upon me 23:49
Me: That's what I want.  23:49
Me: I've wanted that since 16.  23:49
Me: Now I know it was what I thought I deserved.  23:49
You: Yes  23:51
You: How much has changed  23:51
You: You've grown up  23:51
Me: Yes  23:51
Me: Change  23:51
Me: I like it  23:51
You: Change is good  23:52
Me: I don't know  23:52
Me: It just is  23:52
Me: And I'm part of it  23:52
You: Yes  23:52
Me: I could've also not experienced life  23:52
Me: But here we are
Me: Feeling its absurdity  23:52
You: How noble  23:54
Me: Noble?  23:54
You: This is a highly esteemed purpose in life  23:54
You: I think it is noble  23:54
Me: I won't succeed  23:54
Me: I only have a life time.  23:55
You: It's not about succeeding  23:55
You: It's about how we live life  23:55
Me: Exactly  23:55
Me: I see it more as a manner for me to push myself towards being a more open minded, quiet, understanding, good intended philosopher  23:55
You: Do you think when we're 60 we'll be having a conversation about how stupid we are at this moment ? Maybe change leads us there some day 23:56
Me: No  23:56
Me: We won't ever call ourselves stupid.  23:56
You: It's funny to think about it  23:56
You: Yes not stupid  23:56
Me: I think we will laugh  23:56
You: But our thinking dynamically develops
23:56
Me: Yes  23:56
Me: But we will laugh nonetheless  23:56
You: We would definitely notice and laugh about the path we've gone since  23:56
Me: We won't get over the absurdity of life. The weird changes, the odd reactions we have to life encounters.  23:57  
You: Life is absurd indeed  23:57
You: It's so beautiful  23:57